Nadine

I follow someone on Instagram, and she posted in her stories about this hateful comment she got on her Youtube channel. She had posted a day in her life video and some troll slammed her saying ” Omg this is so depessing..It is daycare! Not school. I’m sure she will have sweet memories of a frantic mother running around and not being present. “

I know the comment wasn’t about me, obviously. But it sure stung.

Words cannot describe how irate comments like that make me. First of all, when we refer to daycare/preschool in our house, we say school. Because Zoe is learning there. She is learning social skills, potty training, the alphabet, numbers, songs, motor skills, sharing, art….everything. I don’t care if it is “daycare” or “preschool” or whatever you want to refer to it as.

The fact of the matter is, we are a dual income household, and therefore, our daughter attends preschool full time. That doesn’t mean I love her any less than a stay at home mom. She loves her school and gets excited about going. She has amazing teachers who love her and teach her things in different ways than I do. I feel like it only helps her more, as she is learning many different styles of learning and teaching. She has so many friends there, and watching their relationships grow is the sweetest thing.

Also, I instantly felt shamed. Am I a terrible mother??? Because here is a bit of raw, honest truth. Pretty much every morning I am running around like a frantic lunatic trying to get out the door and to work on time. Have you ever tried waking a toddler??? They are like teenagers. Zoe tells me to go away, pulls her blanket over her head and ignores me. Stiffens her body so I cant even pick her up. And have you ever tried to get an opinionated toddler dressed? I swear she takes longer than me to pick out an outfit! And don’t get me started on the shoes. Dear Lord, send help! It takes about 25 minutes just to get Zoe pottied, dressed, and sort of ready to head out the door. And she has to walk down the stairs one step at a time, while asking me important life questions and getting philosophical on me. All the while, I am saying things like, come on…lets keep walking on down.

Inevitably, I lose my temper some mornings and raise my voice. And Zoe raises hers right back with “Don’t yell at me, mommy!!! You’re not my best friend anymore!” And I can tell instantly that I have hurt her feelings. And I feel like shit.

I am sharing all of this to say, I see you working mom. Hell, even if you aren’t a mom, but maybe you get frustrated with your spouse in the morning when you are heading out the door and you aren’t as nice to them as you should have been. Or you fuss at your dog because they don’t do their business fast enough out in the back yard. I see you. I am you. We are all human, and life will wear on you.

The thing is, work is still going to be there when you get there. It isn’t going anywhere. Regardless if you screamed at your toddler or you laughed with her and sang a silly song while fixing her hair, you are still going to get there at the same time. Probably faster, because epic meltdowns take way longer than if you would have just let them go at their own pace to get that last shoe on, am I right?!?!

So next time you feel your patience running thin in the morning, instead of completely losing your cool, take a breath. Remember that mornings are hard, and your little one is just doing the best they can to get ready for the day. It is their day too. It is their day too. Let the phrase sink in for a moment. I know I will from now on.

Hey hey Friday! Is it just me, or are we cruising at high speed through the month of October??? I feel like the calendar just turned over, and now we are nearing the end! I still need to watch Hocus Pocus all the way through at least once. I have started it at least twice, but got distracted by adulting and didn’t get all the way through.

It is Tennessee Hate Week for Bama. Our game is at 8:00 pm. Let’s see if I can hang!

Loving: Zoe’s school pictures came in. How sweet are these???

The other night she was asking me if I still had my makeup on, and I told her I had washed it off so we could go to bed. She said, when I am older I want to wear makeup. I said, “You are already so pretty, you don’t need makeup.” She replied with, “But I want to be like you mommy.” OMG! That might have been one of the sweetest moments ever.

Reading: Midnight Clear by Mary Kay Andrews , I love this series!!!

Listening: Chris and I love watching “the best” of the voice auditions on Youtube on a Friday night with a glass of wine. We discovered Sam Perry a week ago, and I cant stop listening. He is incredible! So not your typical audition, a true artist. I want everyone to know about him, because I am going to need him to come to the US to tour! I am too old for most live events, but for this guy, I will make an exception!

Cooking: These sriracha turkey meatballs are on regular rotation at our house. Usually whip up a batch every few weeks. Delicious!!! And taste great as leftovers too! I know I have shared them before, but need to remind you to make them!

Working: I have started tracking my food in MyFitnessPal again. I have a love hate relationship with tracking. I HATE tracking, but it works. I think twice about any snack I have, or the extra cheese I don’t need on my chili, or the empty calories that is a coffee from SB or DD.

I had some success on Weight Watchers last year, and I think it is a great program. However, the month they rolled out that kids plan??? That is the month I cancelled my subscription immediately. I just cant get behind that company anymore.

I am hoping to keep myself on track and motivated with MFP, and am putting it out here for everyone to see to hold myself accountable.

Planning: I have been pouring over paint colors lately. What is your favorite gray for all over? I read a lot of good things about Agreeable Gray from Sherman Williams. Anyone have it? Whats the best? I want it to look gray, not like blue or purple or any weird undertone.

Excited: The holiday season is quickly approaching, and I just know it is going to be so fun this year!!! Zoe is at that age where everything is exciting and magical to her. She absolutely LOVED the pumpkin patch. She is obsessed with the blow up monster our neighbors have in their yard down the street, and she cant wait to wear her Belle dress to her school and dance Halloween parties.

Can you imagine how much more fun Christmas is going to be??? She already talks about Santa, and despite all of my bitching about Elf on a Shelf before I had a kid, and how I swore I wasn’t going to get roped into it….I think I want to do it this year. Even though she doesn’t know anything about it and I could technically get away without it for at least this year. I just think waking up and looking for the Elf each morning would rock her world. I want her to look back on her childhood, and remember how much fun we tried to make each holiday for her.

Laughing:

This weekend was full of fall fun, and I couldn’t have loved it more!! A cold front finally arrived in Alabama this week, which made our visit to the pumpkin patch this Saturday perfect! There is nothing worse than searching for a pumpkin in 90 degree weather, am I right??

Zoe was so excited about our trip, that she popped right out of bed Saturday morning and said “Can we leave now?!?” We headed up to The Great Pumpkin Patch in Hayden, and got there shortly after 9:00 am. There was hardly anyone there, so Zoe had many of the bounce houses all to herself and there were no lines for the hay rides or petting zoo.

We worked up an appetite walking around the pumpkin patch, so we decided to head over to The Chopping Block in Springville on our way home. We ordered cheese curds for the appetizer, and Zoe and I split a burger and fries. The food was absolutely delicious.

Sunday morning, Zoe and I headed out to Aldi first thing and stocked up on groceries for the week. We got back home, unloaded the groceries, made some fruit dip, and went to my sisters for the afternoon. We were celebrating my mom’s birthday with some good food and board games. We played a heated game of Clue, something I haven’t played in forever! It was so fun! We also played Outburst, but it is the version from the 90s, and well, it is hard to think which movies and people were popular then versus now. I still think of the 90s as the last decade, and it so wasn’t!

Sunday evening, we made pumpkin and squash ravioli and called it a night. Unfortunately, I do not have off for “fake holidays” such as Columbus Day, so off to work I went on Monday!

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend! We are already half way through the week! We can do this!

Happy Friday! We had a cold front come in over the last week, giving us temperatures in the low 80s. Words cannot describe how excited I am!! The high Saturday is supposed to be….wait for it….68!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!! So we will hopefully be heading to the Pumpkin Patch, Zoe has been asking to go and is so excited.

Favorite Moments:A friend of mine texted me around 11 yesterday asking if I had lunch plans. I told her that I could easily be talked out of the lunch I brought, so off to On Tap we went! I was good and ordered the cobb salad with grilled chicken and a water, instead of the Irish Nachos and a burger that I really wanted. And the real winner? Was the INCREDIBLE weather!!! It was a perfect 77 degrees and we sat on the shaded patio. I didn’t want to go back to work. Not even a little. I have got to figure out a way to be my own boss to enjoy things like that more often!!

Favorite Product: During the last Sephora sale, I grabbed a Charlotte Tilbury Eyes To Mesmerize Cream Eyeshadow in Marie Antoinette . What I discovered is that it is totally worth the hype!!! This is a one and done color. Somehow, just swiping a little on with my finger transforms my whole eye and looks like I spent a long time with a palette blending colors to create this perfect look. I have worn it pretty much every day since. I cannot recommend it enough!

The Disney Princess nightgowns at Target have been a huge win in our house. Zoe pretty much wears them exclusively now. I blame this on Laura, who got Zoe this Moana one last year. Since then, we have added Anna and Jasmine to the collection. I am getting the Belle one for her birthday. They hold up well after many washings, and Zoe feels like she is dressing up in a costume instead of getting in jammies….which is a much easier sale for a strongly opinionated toddler.

Favorite Grocery Find: I have been doing our grocery shopping at Aldi the last few weeks. In addition to saving a shit ton of money, we have also discovered some pretty cool stuff! Have you had their Elevation bars? At first I had the coconut almond one that tasted like an Almond Joy, and that was pretty good!!! Then I found the Peanut Butter Fudge Crisp. YOU GUYS!!! It tastes like a Butterfinger, without it getting stuck in your teeth. SO GOOD.

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It’s book day! I signed in on Goodreads and I am 13 books behind schedule for the year. When I set 60 books in January, I thought I was setting the bar low and I would far surpass that. Jokes on me! How are your yearly goals going? Linking up with Steph and Jana.

Spring Fever by Mary Kay Andrews

I love a good Mary Kay Andrews book. She never disappoints. I really enjoyed the story of this one, but there were times in the book that I wanted to strangle the characters!!!! I liked both Mason and Annajane, but the communication between the two of them and being honest with their feelings got to be a bit ridiculous by the time we got to the middle of the book. 

Bottom Line: Cute read if you are a Mary Kay Andrews fan.

Ask Again, Yes by Mary Beth Keane

This book is full of family drama, mental illness, alcoholism, forgiveness, moving on, and how the past molds the present and future. It follows two families who live next door to each other, tragic event happens between them and shows how it all unfolds. It did move a little slow for me, but you needed all the details to make some decisions for yourself to determine how you feel about the end.

Bottom Line: Read it!

The Perfect Wife by JP Delaney

So this book as been my current read on my kindle app for the last four months and I still haven’t gotten past the first 25% of the book. I have loved all of JP Delaney’s other books, but I just couldn’t bring myself to pick this one up or care. Maybe it was the AI/sci-fi aspect of the book I don’t like? I am not really sure. But life is too short to read a book I am not into, so I am giving up and adding this to the DNF pile.

Bottom Line: This was a DNF for me.

**I received a copy of The Perfect Wife from Netgalley in exchange for my honest review.**

The Death of Mrs. Westaway by Ruth Ware

So this is what I consider a typical Ruth Ware read. The premise was interesting, and the story was creepy and twisty just enough to keep me going. I wanted to find out how it all unfolded, but also, if there wasn’t so much lying and secrets, it could really have been a one chapter book. I saw this bingo game on Ware books and I had to share it…because basically all these things apply!

Bottom Line: Good twisty book. I actually guessed straight off who it was, but then the book lead me to think it was someone else for awhile. I should have known!

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